Currently Watching Saw II By Donnie Wahlberg, Franky G, Emmanuelle Vaugier, Beverley Mitchell see related

Well....I was sitting here trying to do my VB project and Kevin once again IMed with "sooooooo bored", so i figured i would take a break and me and him would go see a movie.  We ened up seeing SAW II.....that was really fucked up....but makes you think!  Just wow, once again it threw me for a loop.  I was sitting through parts of it with my head under my hoodie scared to see what would happen next...but by the end i found myself just completely intrigued with what was going on!  Good Movie I recommend it.....you kinda need to see the first one before you see this one!  Makes more sense if you do.

Other than that....HALLOWEEN is OVER!  Yay!  It's a great feeling to have NO ONE in the store!

School has been getting to me a little especially my Computer Programming class.  I brought it on myself working 40+ hours a week and going to school full time (5 classes, 16 credits), so i should have just prepared myself for it.....it's just with this COMP SCIE class, some of it just doens't make sense to me.  Guess that side of my brain doesn't work as well!!!!   I

I scheduled my classes for next semester....only took five classes even though i was thinking about taking 6, which would have been 19 credits....aka A LOT of work....but things werent working out with my schedule.  HAHA I think i can be content with 16 credits, that's still a lot.  Plus i plan on taking some classes in the summer so i can finish school some time soon!  I'm excited, i decided to take a painting class(to complete my requirements in art).......it should be interesting....the money that i'm gonna have to spend on supplies is gonna suck, but it'll be worth it.  Which makes me think.....if guys always get an office or their own room (besides the garage) when they move into their house....i want the same thing but an art room.  Ideally I would love a wheel and a kiln for making pottery and then space to set up still life's for drawing and painting.  But i doubt i'll be able to have all of that......but one can dream!!!

I actually have next sunday off....i can't freakn' wait...it'll be the first day of where I'll have NOTHING to do all day, no work, no school, NO NOTHING!  You better believe i'm sleeping in.

I just love spending time with JakeMan and Aidan (Kevin and Carissa aren't bad either haha).  They have to be the two cutest kids in the world!  It just make me want to have kids of my own so much more.  I admire Kelly so much for being who she is and being able to provide what she has for her four kids!  This might sound like a 6 year old who is asked who they admire, but really, i would love to be as great of a mom  to my kids as she is to hers!

CHRISTMAS is coming, I can NOT wait for that either...to finally have someone special to spend it with excites me even more.  Christmas is my thing....i'm a stickler for traditions and to be able to share them with Mike is probably going to make this the best Christmas EVER!

***Hit me with one more can kid, and i'll chop of your kahonies and soak 'em in motor oil!!!!***

***There are 15 people in this house and you're the old one who has to cause trouble

Get up stairs...

I am up stairs DUMMIE....THE 3rd Floor?  I don't wanna sleep upstairs

Fuller will be up in a few

I don't wanna sleep with Fuller he wets the BED***

***Look what you did you little JERK***

***Kevin you're such a disease*** ...i crack myself up

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I just had dinner with Laura.......it was good to get out with her, it's been such a long time since we've been able to really catch up and talk because we don't have as many classes together!  She's so awesome......YAY, I get to go to her wedding in MAY!!!!  Dress up time!!!!!

Things between Mike and I are good.  It's only been two months, but he makes me happier every time I see him.  Which I might add, I don't really get to see too often because of work and school.

That brings me to what's been on my mind the past few days....... for those of you who think "She has a boyfriend now, she doesn't have time for anyone.  All she is doing is what he wants her to do!"  You couldn't be more wrong.......first off, if someone could tell me a time when they have started out in a relationship and DIDN'T want to see their significant other as much as possible........I'd be very surprised.  It's how you get to know them.  Then eventually you start to separate and start incorporate each other into one another's "other lives"!  You staart hanging out with friends and that person a lot more.  Which to me seems like it allows me to appreiciate the "alone" time a lot more!!!  Shoot me if I want to see him, it's kinda how relationships work, just a little newsflash for ya!  And secondly, I've decided ON MY OWN  to distance myself from people because I know I'm not welcomed.  I'm not trying to start any fights or bring on any uncomfortable situations.  Just not my thing.  Guess I'm willing to sacrifice some friendships of mine to let other certain people be happy.  If the opportunity would arise that things went back to the way they were, it would make me very happy to have these friendships back.  I'm not saying I'm not friends with them anymore....I've just cut off my ties to make things simpler.  And being on the outside now, I see that everything and everyone is working just fine without me....

I've said my peace, the above is the truth......take it as you like, interpret as you will.....all I know is I'm doing most of this for the better good of the whole situation!  I don't regret what I'm doing so and I think that's the most important thing!

Currently Listening Ten Thousand Fists By Disturbed see related

So I'm happy.....a great feeling let me tell you, I'm dating a guy name Mike, most of you don't know him....he's really great...and I'm happy, so that's all the matters!!!!

I hate that I'm distant from Dan, but I refused to put up with the bullshit that was going on...I'm gonna be honest here and I really don't care who reads this and what opinion they will form.....

I needed to tell Dan I couldn't go to  NC/SC because of school......there is NO other reason!  After talking with my teachers, they told me my grades would suffer too much if I missed an entire week of school.  I originally said I could go, back in last semester when I had teachers who didn't have an attendance policy, I thought it would just carry over to this semester, well I was wrong....sorry I already fucked up once in school, I wasn't about to do it again.  So as soon as I knew this I let Dan know...it was the right thing to do.  And even though I know he seemed ok with it I have a feeling he thinks it's for others reasons.  It wasn't because of Mike.....he was telling me to go, and...so really form you're own opinions, but the REAL reason is because of school.

I don't think I've talked to Dan in like a week to two weeks.  FUCKED up huh....but no offense Dan you were being a complete DICK to me...and yes you say all the time you're an asshole, but never before were you this condescending and hurtful...so I said, it's not worth my time...you told me to move on and I did.  I thought we were gonna be fine...thought we were still gonna be able to hang out, but apparently, not.......I didn't feel the need to belittled every time I spoke a word.  Hopefully this will pass but until then.......

School is pretty fun so far, but I see the work building up so fast......

DUDE, XANGA added a lot of cool stuff!

Currently Listening Karma and Effect By Seether see related

I HEART MY FRIENDS...

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Currently Listening We Are Not Alone By Breaking Benjamin see related

Well the shore was fun....got a nice tan

I actually want school to start....i want to get on with my life so i need to finish school....like wo!

LAURA I MISS YOU TOO!!!!!!

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They attack and invade

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